It's been awhile since I sat down and typed my feelings down for all the internet to see. I had a nice reminisce over my past..
My loss.
My Depression.
My loneliness.
My heartache.
My naivety.
I suppose I don't type out my feelings much anymore because I feel better. I am a more confident human being now, I've been able to learn about myself, I've been able to travel, I've met new people who aren't the same as me.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still hopelessly in love with certain women in my life, but it doesn't seem to get in the way of my day to day operation. There are still things that I get wrong all the time, and trouble still seems to find me. But I can handle it all now in a healthier way.
I will state that I am afraid to get back on stage and act in Rosebud again, mostly because I don't know if I'll be able to handle it. I haven't done it in a long time, and I frankly don't want to act anymore. I've gotten certified to teach now, and I want to do that. I want to be able to travel across this plain of existence and do something practical in life.
Art is practical in a non-practical way, it encourages the mind, it encourages the inner growth. I want more than that, I want more than an opinion shoved into my face or shoved into someone else's face. I want to do good, I don't want to create unhealthy problems. I don't want to seem like I have an agenda.
That's kind of it for right now.
