😟

Why do I feel this way?

Lonely. Depressed.

Is it because I feel stuck? Trapped in a life I don't want to be living?

Away from all my friends?

The one thing always comes back around is the feeling that am alone. I'm single. And yes.
We've been here before. but it bothers me on a mental level. It bothers me that it seems to be so hard. And why shouldn't it be?
it's love.

But my friends are all happy and married or in a relationship and I am left to traverse this land alone.

I want to cry. but it seems childish to cry about this.

So I won't.

I'm busy though. I'm working my ass off at work every day and now I'm rehearsing a movie. And I have auditions. things are happening for me. but I just don't feel fulfilled.

I'm in love. but I think I'm in love with the wrong woman. she is so out of reach.