Don't really know what to say.
I'm here late at night, unable to fall asleep again.
My melatonin has unfortunately failed me yet again. And I'm left to stare into the black abyss around me.
There's nothing major going on in my life that is keeping me awake, I just am having trouble falling asleep. I do open a show on Wednesday, but I am confident enough in it that I shouldn't feel stressed. Maybe it's because I got to an emotional triumph in rehearsal today with my character but then was unable to crawl out of it. I just didn't know what it was that kept me there, I had to completely disassociate myself from the work in order to crawl out in a healthy manner. It then left me exhausted for the rest of the day. It was a little scary.
I don't have any pressing matters. We talked about Stage Sensuality in rehearsal today as an off-topic topic, and we discussed it's importance in the theatre and how it should be treated like stage combat and dance. It's blocking, and the importance that you emphasize on the intellectual basis of it and trying to remove any form of sexual tension or what not. It was interesting, I've been intrigued by this topic for a while now and want to dig deeper and discover more. (ex. no rehearsal kissing without a third member or crew member present).
Another thing would be that I am still trying to focus on me, and my skills. Consistently improving upon thyself, and building a person you can respect when gazed upon.
Well, that probably didn't make a lot of sense. But I am just trying to fall asleep. Thank you Blog.
